How fast can 14 days go?

In two weeks, my baby will be here. My doctor seems to think less than that. These next two weeks are going to be the toughest two weeks of my pre-mommy existence. 

I'll have to let go of the selfish me. The immediate gratification me. Everything in life as I know it will change. 

I have to now morph into a mommy role and show someone else how to become his own person, to guide him through life and hope that he makes good decisions for himself.

This seems very daunting for me considering that I am just now becoming comfortable with myself. It has taken me a long time, but I have finally accepted who I am. How can I ensure that I will be successful with my son? 

While I am soooo extremely excited to meet my little one, there are still so many insecurities of if I am capable and competent enough. I know new moms struggle with this all of the time and succeed, but when you have to face that fear for yourself, it is overwhelming and you feel like you will never climb the mountain and get to the other side. 

I compare parenthood to going back to school after summer vacation. You would have a carefree summer that seemed to never end. No responsibilities. All you had to do every morning was just get up and play. Then as the school year drew near, you became apprehensive and scared. As the days crept closer, the impending task at hand frightened you more to where you couldn't sleep. 

I would often stay up late during the last few nights before school, mulling over so many things in my head. Will I know where to go? Will my teacher be nice? Will people like me? These questions drove me crazy. 

Finally, the first day of school. I would awake usually teary-eyed with a lump in my throat. Here it is. The big day. No turning back. I feared the worst, expecting to be picked on, lost and alone. 

Eventually, my worries were eased and I fell into a routine. I found a few friends and my biggest fears were never realized. The school year drug on and I learned new things and grew as a person. 

I can only hope the fears I have now will in retrospect be unfounded, and I will find my way as a mom.

14 days.....