15 weeks!

Today marks 15 weeks!! 

I've been reading The Sweet Potato Queen's Guide to Raising Children for Fun & Profit by Jill Browne that my dearest KZH gave to me. It is HI-larious! Jill Browne is a Southern lady and she writes how she talks. 

"...the moment when you know with absolute certainty that you are, in fact, a Pregnant Woman - I'd have to say is the single most Stunning Moment of Your Life....You've flipped that light switch to no avail for so long you've become accustomed to the dark, and now, all of a sudden, the same little flip of the same little switch has made some kind of cosmic connection and WHOOO DOGGIES! EVERY LIGHT IN THE HOUSE CAME ON!

From this moment on nothing in your life will ever-EVER-EVER-be the same......."

I think this excerpt describes my exact reaction to finding out I was pregnant. Stunning but unbelievable at the same time. 

Ever day I am amazed when I look in a mirror. When I have an ultrasound done and see how much the baby grows from week to week, it is outstanding. In 15 weeks my mind has changed so much about pregnancy. In the beginning, I was extremely frightened, but now with every day that passes, I can't wait to hold my little one and kiss it's little hands. A and I talk about all the cute and silly things the baby will probably do, and how to raise it and how to help mold it into a bright, capable individual. 

A and I met with JL and TL yesterday for lunch, and we got to talk about baby stuff and life with a baby. They have a 2 year old and a 3 month old. JL was in the same situation I am in now.  A young newlywed who had a baby a little bit sooner than she expected. Hearing how they have adjusted and seeing that they are doing well and have managed gives me a lot of hope. A and I can do this too. After lunch yesterday, I have felt more comfortable than ever with this pregnancy and raising a child. 

Deliverance

So I have been eating crackers with peanut butter sparsely through the day for the past couple of days because I couldn't stomach anything else. I woke up at 4 am this morning and ending up sitting on the couch and falling asleep in an upright position because the pain was unbearable.  I got so worried that my baby wasn't getting nutrients that I ended up having a small panic attack this morning before work. ugh.

Then, finally, after 3 days and sleepless nights, my stomach growled on my way home from work. victory is mine!!!! I have reclaimed my stomach and my desire to eat!

So, I got home, showered, opened the mail....and thought about what to eat.

I got in my car, drove down Greenville past A and I's usual dinner haunts, but everything sounded disgusting. Then, a light bulb went off.

I did what any starving pregnant woman would do, in an act of deranged preggo hunger, I got out onto the freeway and drove to Uptown where I work. Mind you, this is 20 minutes away.

 Down the street from my building is Great American Hero, or mecca, as I like to call it.

THE BEST sub sandwiches in the world. So good I can't describe it.

I hadn't had fresh veggies in 2 weeks and my body was craving the fresh veggies, meat and cheese piled onto a soft foccacia sub roll. goodness.

 Needless to say, Great American Hero really is my hero today. 

yum.....

Indigestion HELL!!!

I have felt so sick for the past 4 days. My blood sugar drops rapidly, so then I eat and try to fill up. Now I have terrible indigestion and I just can't get any relief.  My abdomen feels like it is being stretched. 

It's getting so bad that I can't even eat during the day. I have one meal and that fills me up all day. 

bleck.... 

The baby bump has arrived!

Well, I'm finally starting to look pregnant. I have a baby bump now! Unfortunately, though, none of my pants fit comfortably. I end up having to unbutton the top button when no one is looking. ha!

I also found out that my little one is at a very low risk of having a chromosomal disorder! yay for healthy baby!

I hope during my ultrasound tomorrow I can catch it sucking it's thumb! I hear that starts happening about this time.

Still so much to do!!!

3 months!!! Feels like 3 years!!

Well, I am at a big milestone in my pregnancy. 3 months!! 

So far, I have felt good other than extreme fatigue and occasional headache.

I had a really bad headache today, but luckily with some Tylenol and a nice back massage from A, I feel better.

Last night was so weird. A and I went to a wedding for one of his fraternity brothers.

We sat at a table with an older fraternity member, his wife, and their 4 month old son.

Everybody kept coming up and asking if we were ready and "you'll be having one of those in just a few months!"

It was nice being able to talk to this woman and see how pregnancy was for her and get a few helpful tips. Their son is SOOOOOO adorable. I think in the hour and a half we were at the wedding, both A and I took our eyes off him maaaybe twice. 

I think I am most excited for the phase when the baby starts to interact and explore. 

Nothing beats a sweet little one gazing at you and then wrinkling its face and giving you a toothless, drooly smile. 

I hope we can be good parents. 

I have my genetic test this wednesday. I'll find out if our baby has any chromosomal disorders like Down Syndrome. 

I know they are going to ask if I want to terminate the pregnancy if any disorder is found. Sadly, 90 percent of women who find out they have a baby with Down Syndrome terminate. I just could not do that and live with myself. Having a brother with Down Syndrome has taught me so many things. Yes, it was a huge challenge and fight for my parents to make sure my brother was never left behind in school. I've seen my mom yell at school administrators to try and get necessary education for my brother and his peers,  and cry in the evenings when things just got too hard to bear. My brother and others with special needs have brought us so much joy though. I've been a witness to small miracles growing up with my lil brother. Ok, off my soapbox. 

I'm keeping this little one, regardless of what it looks like, if it is purple with yellow spots, who cares, it is a continuation of me and my husband and that is all that matters. 

Until another rumble......