Indigestion HELL!!!

I have felt so sick for the past 4 days. My blood sugar drops rapidly, so then I eat and try to fill up. Now I have terrible indigestion and I just can't get any relief.  My abdomen feels like it is being stretched. 

It's getting so bad that I can't even eat during the day. I have one meal and that fills me up all day. 

bleck.... 

The baby bump has arrived!

Well, I'm finally starting to look pregnant. I have a baby bump now! Unfortunately, though, none of my pants fit comfortably. I end up having to unbutton the top button when no one is looking. ha!

I also found out that my little one is at a very low risk of having a chromosomal disorder! yay for healthy baby!

I hope during my ultrasound tomorrow I can catch it sucking it's thumb! I hear that starts happening about this time.

Still so much to do!!!

3 months!!! Feels like 3 years!!

Well, I am at a big milestone in my pregnancy. 3 months!! 

So far, I have felt good other than extreme fatigue and occasional headache.

I had a really bad headache today, but luckily with some Tylenol and a nice back massage from A, I feel better.

Last night was so weird. A and I went to a wedding for one of his fraternity brothers.

We sat at a table with an older fraternity member, his wife, and their 4 month old son.

Everybody kept coming up and asking if we were ready and "you'll be having one of those in just a few months!"

It was nice being able to talk to this woman and see how pregnancy was for her and get a few helpful tips. Their son is SOOOOOO adorable. I think in the hour and a half we were at the wedding, both A and I took our eyes off him maaaybe twice. 

I think I am most excited for the phase when the baby starts to interact and explore. 

Nothing beats a sweet little one gazing at you and then wrinkling its face and giving you a toothless, drooly smile. 

I hope we can be good parents. 

I have my genetic test this wednesday. I'll find out if our baby has any chromosomal disorders like Down Syndrome. 

I know they are going to ask if I want to terminate the pregnancy if any disorder is found. Sadly, 90 percent of women who find out they have a baby with Down Syndrome terminate. I just could not do that and live with myself. Having a brother with Down Syndrome has taught me so many things. Yes, it was a huge challenge and fight for my parents to make sure my brother was never left behind in school. I've seen my mom yell at school administrators to try and get necessary education for my brother and his peers,  and cry in the evenings when things just got too hard to bear. My brother and others with special needs have brought us so much joy though. I've been a witness to small miracles growing up with my lil brother. Ok, off my soapbox. 

I'm keeping this little one, regardless of what it looks like, if it is purple with yellow spots, who cares, it is a continuation of me and my husband and that is all that matters. 

Until another rumble......

One of these feet is not like the other...

So, I was putting my shoes on this past Sunday to get ready to run errands. I noticed my left shoe fit a little tight. I have little velcro strips on my shoes. I thought, maybe the velcro is just worn..... nope. The left shoe wouldn't velcro closed!! My foot is swollen! I read up on this and this is a common occurrence in pregnancy. Your feet get swollen and grow bigger! Guess I'll need to add shoes to my long maternity shopping list. ha! 

My baby loves to dance!!

Today I went in for another sonogram. The little peanut is no more! It's squatty and fat and it has little hands and feet buds!! It's the cutest thing!! My doctor focused on the baby. All of the sudden, the baby started to jolt and wiggle its bottom and move its little hands! My doctor was like "OH look!!! The little one is dancing and showing off, it knows that we're watching." I was just beaming. I wish I could have recorded that quick 5 seconds. It was the most amazing thing ever. There really is life inside of me. He or she is going to love to dance, just like their mommy and daddy. =)

 I've found while I'm getting my appetite back, I'm starting to not like some foods that I used to be able to eat. I can't eat lunchmeat or yogurt!  I'm also a little worried, because I'm not gaining any weight at all. I've actually lost 2 pounds. I sure hope I can gain enough to keep myself and the little one healthy. 

My doctor also gave me a run down on labor and delivery and cord blood donation. It is so expensive. That has been such a controversial issue. I have to really think about this one. It's amazing how many things you have to start thinking of when you have a baby. 

How will I pay for child care and health care. Who will take the child if me and my husband suddenly pass away. Do we bank cord blood so that if this child or future children get a diesease, it can possibly save their lives? Do I consent to a blood transfusion if needed? How will I pay for its needs and college? 

There is so much to think about. SO much to do.  So much paperwork.

Nine Weeks and a zombie

So, let me just start off by saying, I am SOOOOO frikkin tired. It is 5:30 pm and I think I have been asleep off and on since noon today. 

I had so many things I wanted to do this weekend, but I had zero energy. I was craving a McFlurry, so I was able to muster the energy to drive down the street and get one. I quickly ate it, and then fell asleep.....

Now, I'm on the couch, watching the Cowboys, and dozing off. 

I have never been one for daytime naps, so this is just insane. My body does not operate after midday naps. 

I can't sleep at night because my back or boobs hurt and I can't get comfortable. I've tried sleeping on my left side with a pillow between my legs, but the pillow quickly ends up on the other side of the room on the floor. A has even started sleeping on the couch in the living room because I apparently keep him up and night with my tossing and turning, and talking in my sleep.  It's slowly turning him in to a non-productive zombie.

I've become a zombie at work. I'm so afraid my boss is going to fire me because I wander through the day in a sleepy, grouchy, haze. My job requires me to be sharp every second of the day, and my edge is definitely dulling. My boss is definitely taking notice....

I've been reading that in the second trimester you have a lot more energy. Boy I sure hope so. 

I have no clue how I'm going to survive when we have the baby. Then I REALLY won't be able to sleep. 

yargh....enough complaining...back to sleep...

Random

I'm excited to be a mommy... I want a vanilla cupcake with pink icing and confetti sprinkles.... that is all....