So far, I have felt good other than extreme fatigue and occasional headache.
I had a really bad headache today, but luckily with some Tylenol and a nice back massage from A, I feel better.
Last night was so weird. A and I went to a wedding for one of his fraternity brothers.
We sat at a table with an older fraternity member, his wife, and their 4 month old son.
Everybody kept coming up and asking if we were ready and "you'll be having one of those in just a few months!"
It was nice being able to talk to this woman and see how pregnancy was for her and get a few helpful tips. Their son is SOOOOOO adorable. I think in the hour and a half we were at the wedding, both A and I took our eyes off him maaaybe twice.
I think I am most excited for the phase when the baby starts to interact and explore.
Nothing beats a sweet little one gazing at you and then wrinkling its face and giving you a toothless, drooly smile.
I hope we can be good parents.
I have my genetic test this wednesday. I'll find out if our baby has any chromosomal disorders like Down Syndrome.
I know they are going to ask if I want to terminate the pregnancy if any disorder is found. Sadly, 90 percent of women who find out they have a baby with Down Syndrome terminate. I just could not do that and live with myself. Having a brother with Down Syndrome has taught me so many things. Yes, it was a huge challenge and fight for my parents to make sure my brother was never left behind in school. I've seen my mom yell at school administrators to try and get necessary education for my brother and his peers, and cry in the evenings when things just got too hard to bear. My brother and others with special needs have brought us so much joy though. I've been a witness to small miracles growing up with my lil brother. Ok, off my soapbox.
I'm keeping this little one, regardless of what it looks like, if it is purple with yellow spots, who cares, it is a continuation of me and my husband and that is all that matters.
Until another rumble......
1 comment:
I have to agree with your position on this one. I hope you are saving all of these blogs for a book somewhere so your child can read them one day. He/she needs to know what a sweet mommy they have and that you loved them before you even met.
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