And then he smiled at me.....

Just when I get so frustrated and tired that I honestly want to give up...X surprises me and it gives me a boost to keep going. 

X hasn't been sleeping well and I am extremely exhausted by the time the morning rolls around. He cries when he's hungry, and now he has started crying just to get attention. 

While I was feeding X this morning at 7 am, I nearly fell asleep and I was just beat down. I started staring off to the other side of the room. I felt X stop nursing and looked down. He was looking up at me and he gave me the biggest, brightest smile and went "ah-oh". It melted me. 

We then smiled back and forth for about 20 minutes. 

This past weekend the in-laws came over and we celebrated A's birthday. My sister-in-law has two sons, age 5 months and 3 years. I wanted to cry because seeing my youngest nephew next to X made me realize just how quickly he is going to grow up. Now, I can't put X down. I want to cuddle him and play with him and soak in every baby moment before he gets bigger. He's a tiny little munchkin right now. I wish he could stay that way forever.....