I really can't decide if it would be more feasible for me to stay home and take care of the baby, or if I should go back to work. I'd have to make enough money to compensate for gas and child care, as well as taking care of any expenses that aren't covered by A's salary.
A and I were hoping that I could stay home for the first year so I wouldn't miss the firsts. Neither of us wanted to do this, but we are going to have to.
It just hit me that I will have to put my little one in someone else's care when I go back to work and it breaks my heart. I just get this image of my helpless little one in someone else's care and I can't stop crying about it. I don't want to miss the firsts, but if I don't work, we just won't make it. If there was a work at home alternative, that would a miracle.
My business is starting up, and my old boss is about to pass 2 projects on to me. That will be a couple grand right there for those. But, it's not going to be enough. My business is not going to be enough.
I know people do this all the time. Women only get 8 weeks or so of leave and then they have to go back to work. It is just all so hard to grasp.
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